TALKING2MINDS

TALKING2MINDS

TALKING2MINDS

PTSD is a state of mind...you need someone to alter that state of mind, that someone is you... But these people will help you get there.

TALKING2MINDS

TALKING2MINDS PTSD

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PTSD A prisoner in your own mind?

In 1982 I was nineteen and  at such a tender age I had already taken the lives of two men and watched over fifty being killed and many hundreds badly burnt and injured when my anti aircraft missile system failed when I was sent to the Falkland Islands after it was invaded by Argentina. Those summer months nearly thirty years ago are the most memorable of my life for all the wrong reasons. None of us had ever heard the term Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) even though many Vietnam veterans were suffering from it in the 80s. If someone had even bothered to inform me about it as a testosterone filled patriotic British soldier I probably would have shrugged thinking nothing of it.  During that brief but savage War 255 British and 649 Argentine soldiers tragically lost their lives as well as three civilian Falkland Islanders. Those horrific events were to become burnt into my mind forever and even typing this short article brings it all back again. The more shocking statistic is that more Falkland veterans were to eventually take their own lives due to untreated PTSD than were killed in action ,a similar story to Vietnam, only the suicides in the US have been on a much horrifically  larger scale due to the length and unpopularity  of the War.
Its Thirty years next year and the anniversary of the Falklands War and I’m still here to tell the tale unlike Mickey who served alongside me and sadly succumbed to PTSD a few years ago. In 2007 I returned to the Islands for the 25th anniversary, the Falkland Islanders kindly opened their homes to the returning liberators. I chose to sleep in a portacabin at an army camp as I regularly suffer from night terrors and did not want to disturb them especially if they had young children. Three marriages down the road I’m sure my ex wife’s would testify to my reliving of the War at night time. An expert in diagnosis of PTSD and officer in the USMC told me that “We are heading for a Tsunami of mental health cases.”  after our follies in Iraq and Afghanistan. What is even more foolish is thinking that a human being can witness the most barbaric sights imaginable and then hop on a plane and  come home as easy as if he has just been down the local store for a bottle of milk. Amazingly there are many in Britain that think our young servicemen and woman should be able to kill and watch their friends being killed simply because its their job. They think wrongly that men who fought in older conflicts were unaffected even though the term shell shock came out of the horrors of World War One. If a fire-fighter finds the dead  bodies of badly burnt children in a wardrobe as they try to hide from the flames, he or she will be rightly so affected by the events,. I would be more worried if he or she wasn’t. But soldiers , well its their job isn’t it? In my opinion this stigma attached to PTSD is a contribution factor to the large number of suicides, we British should just make a nice hot cup of sweet tea and put on our best Stiff Upper Lip , if only it was that simple. Having this condition is a daily battle in trying to  control it. At War yet again only this time its with your own mind. Even on what some might regard as a `good day` the controller is in the background ready to pull your strings and put your back in that dark box. Long term PTSD sufferers are like prisoners occasionally let out on parole only to be dragged back to the dark recesses of your cell ,your own mind ,we simply cannot escape. This is a critical point when some choose to opt for `execution` , or as the rest of society see it `suicide`. But with help we can leave those cerebral prison gates for good and lead a normal life choosing when and if we want to remember our painful past.


I was diagnosed with PTSD ten years after coming out of the forces by a civilian councillor and refused to talk to her about my problems. She asked me to do something that changed my life and it did not involve any medication. She asked me to go away and write my thoughts and feelings down. Its much easier to open up your inner most feelings on a piece of paper and it began to flow like a small stream until it reached a torrent of emotion. From the suicidal  wreck who at times  was living rough in a hole in the ground I became a published author and campaigner for veterans rights taking me  all the way to The Prime Minister at Downing street  and many TV newspaper and radio appearances.


 My writing and  poetry opened up to gates to my soul a gave me a valuable tool in the arsenal against PTSD. PTSD is not prejudiced in who it chooses, it respects no sovereign boundaries or religious backgrounds or ethnicity , soldier, sailor candle stick maker, we are all human beings.

My latest book is a book of poetry to help raise fund for the mental health charity Talkin2minds http://www.talking2minds.co.uk/ started by a former SAS soldier Bob Paxman. If you would like to contribute to this International project please send your poetry / short story. Photos, to remybenoit@gmail.com an amazing lady and champion for all veterans who are suffering due to their service. You don’t have to be a veteran. 

THE BAY RADIO HELPS UK VETERANS WITH PTSD

I would like to say a big thank you to The Bay my local radio station for running a story today on their news desk and web site for my book in support of veterans with PTSD. All monies raised will go to the charity TALKING2MINDS I am looking for anyone who might like to
contribute to this project. You don’t have to be ex military, it doesn't have to be a poem , photographs even a short story dealing with trauma. Maybe Fire/ambulance /Police ..or any other emergency services. Perhaps you remember World War Two and have a story about being evacuated. However small please send it and you may get to see it in print and help veterans at the same time. As a footnote I might add that BBC Radio Cumbria have still not answered any of my inquiries.

HELP TALKLING2MINDS WITH YOUR POETRY

As you may know if you follow this Blog or my Face book page I am currently looking for material for a book of poetry and stories /pictures. Initially I was looking for purely military related but I would like to open it up to members of the emergency services who have been involved in traumatic situations during their employment. That’s the thing with PTSD it does not just effect servicemen and woman in War zones it can strike at all of us when we least expect it. Not only will you have the pleasure of seeing your work in print but you will know that the proceeds of this book (and you can retain your copyright )is helping veterans suffering from mental health problems. I think it is only right and proper that you know who the money will go to and the name of the organisation. The organisation is called Talking2minds Charity founder Rob Paxman, himself a former SAS veteran, said:” Since forming three years ago we have treated more than 300 soldiers. Andy is a credit to the army and to his country. And we are giving him all the help he needs.” An MoD Spokesman told us: “The mental health of our Armed Forces and veterans is a top priority and we are constantly looking to improve the care they receive.” But Andy adds: “I received more beneficial help from Talking2minds in four days than I did in an entire year from the Army."


If you have anything you would like to contribute no matter how small photos, stories, anecdotes, anything that will directly help veterans like Andy and many others please send via e-mail to remybenoit@gmail.com  I am doing this project voluntarily and will not be receiving anything monetarily, as a PTSD suffer myself I just want to help.

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